Don't know if you've been thinking about me. But I have been thinking about you. I feel like my other half is gone somewhere far away. I sure didn’t plan for our departure. Every day for the past 9days since we last spent time together, all I could think about was you. Like was you thinking about me and the kids, funny pastimes we shared, intimate moments from gazing into each other’s eyes to having deep conversations or while pondering on deep thoughts to enjoying us. We have so much in common and ahead of us. We hold hands while cuddling up together watching TV shows. Imitating characters from our favorite movies, finishing each other’s sentences or just being able to look into each other’s face being able to tell what one another's thinking without saying a word. Talk about Chemistry :-) not to mention incredible sex. With all that being said, there’s nobody I’d rather spend my time/days with than you good and bad ones. I Love You!
Monday, February 22, 2010
Or was it my mind that is filled with those insults,
opinions,and desires that will never be told,
because in all actuality I think before I speak.
Is it all a dream
or did I act out this life scene
without any compassion for your feelings
or any guilt in my heart.
Did I ignore your cry or neglect your needs
while wondering around like nothing happened.
Was I so drunk with unresolved emotion
that I forgot that you were a person standing before me?
Something had to have happened, why else would you cry.
Did I OD on love to the point where I have become numb
or did I allow life to frustrate me to the point where I can't breathe.
Either way I hurt you with no intent
and I'm sorry for that.
I thought I had control, but obviously I didn't.
My unconscious mind prevailed
and I'm no longer me
So it's best that we move on.
Friday, February 19, 2010
Spring comes and goes like a breeze
sending us into the Summer
where the heat warms our souls with passion,
causing us to head into Fall
without a worry in the world.
While we watch the leaves come off the trees
and before you know it here comesWinter,
as I wrap myself in you
so I can go into complete hibernation
waking up to realizing that a year has gone by
and that my love 4 you is ever increasing
because you weren'there just for a season.
Wednesday, January 27, 2010
Our eyes have metbut stuck In the moment;
With words unspoken
We can feel each other’s stare
With words unspoken
We can feel each other’s stare
not knowing which way to break the ice
We don’t speak, only connect
Just a hallway away
Unable to capitalize on the moment
With a series of bad decisions
Our paths continue to cross
Hearts drawn, but still unable to speak
Life continues to hand us despair
If only words could have been spoken sooner
When opportunity knocks
It's Never Too Late
We’ve finally talked
A Match made in Heaven
10 years without words
Without any regrets
Just ready to move forward
3rd time’s the charm
Rewarded for all of the pain
With lifetime of Mrs. Added to your name
Friday, January 8, 2010
I remember like it was yesterday when I had my first crush. I was in the 6th grade and her name was Toi Barnhardt. Wow! She was the perfect girl and I don’t mean sexy like I hear some of young guys talking. I mean cute, sweet, everything that a girl in the 6th grade should be. I thought she was the best thing since sliced bread and assume everybody around me was crazy for not liking her. It’s true! She was so clearly this perfect, amazing girl and I was honestly so confused with the fact that she wasn’t swarmed with pre-pubescent boys, that I tried to examine her critically, looking for flaws that I hadn’t seen before. Unsuccessful at this attempt to find something wrong her, I realized that people have different taste. In the 6th grade that was a profound message to me. She may have been the perfect girl to me, but that doesn’t mean that she was perfect for everyone else! Anyways….I was shy and I didn’t say anything to her, but I did give her some fries and a piece of my primetime pizza at lunch. That’s pretty much the sum of our relationship. I guess I didn’t have my swag yet lol. In some way it was pretty naïve for me to think that everyone would like this girl, but another way it was to me really romantic you know? I thought she was, objectively, the best girl ever!
Monday, December 28, 2009
In a world where one night stands are common occurrences, are we really prepared for repercussions of these sexual encounters? Are we actually equipped to handle what affect these experiences will have on our mind, body, and souls? Can you walk away from these occurrences with your reputation and dignity intact? I’m going to break these “One night stands” down into three parts mind, body, and soul.
Mind refers to the aspects of intellect and consciousness manifested into combinations of thought, perception, memory, emotion, will, and imagination. First things first did you actually think about this decision thoroughly? Were you prepared with contraception? Did you actually plan it out or was it a random act? Were you emotionally connected to the individual or were you able to walk away without any regrets? Did you do it under your own will, were you manipulated or under the influence? Is your partner someone who does this all the time or are the both of you doing it for the first time? While most cases people wouldn’t know half these answers. This is just an example of how the risks out way the rewards because the only reward is pleasure which isn’t a guarantee either.
Your Body is supposed to be your temple, and you supposed to protect it at all times. Did you know that every time you have intercourse with somebody that they become a part of you? Are you able to except that reality? Did you think about the risk of pregnancy and the risk of catching sexually transmitted diseases that can kill you or stay with you for life? According to the American Social Health Association 19 million new STD cases are reported in United States every year. Your body is to be respected and not worth the risk of damaging because of one night of passion.
Soul is the spiritual or immaterial part of a human being. It is what many believe gets you into the kingdom of Heaven. Intercourse is supposed to be under God, between Husband and Wife, and used for the purpose of procreation. Now I’m no saint, but if you got a chance to make it right: then make it right. Why put your soul up for collateral, while living your life lateral, choosing passion over judgment. Deception over reputation and not realizing the real lies that are used for the opportunist to take opportune time to help agonize, demoralize, and hypnotize you into ignoring your spiritual obligation. In the end is a “One night stand” worth the price of your mind body, and soul.